#53

omg its been several hours since i tried to log in to pet society!
darn! loggin in to that addictive game is such a pain in the ass!!!!
##$#$%$@@!!! @#@#$***^$$###%%!!
ok since i cant log in, i chat with my pet's friends, not on msn or ym just simply on facebook through forums or whatsoever. and one of my friend named Jacq from Philipines has been so nice to me, really. eventough we havent see eact other directly, but we talked like we're friends for such a long time. it's nice :)
and today i must say that MAN, I ATE A LOT!
really. i still feel so full until now. hehehe.
started with this morning i woke up late at about 11.40 am then i drank milk (it's low fat!)
then my Mom made this thing from tofu, and i ate it. yummy delicious! ;p
after that i ate lele goreng (fried catfish), i ate 3 lele! mwahahahaha

lele goreng (fried catfish) taken from this blog along with the recipe, YAY! :D

eventough they're not really big, but hey come on me! 3 lele! and not forget to mention the rice also, i ate rice a lot! its not usual for me if you know how i eat and my portion usually. hahah
and my eating behavior today isnt stop there.
i still feel hungry, so i open the fridge then i found some crackers, then i ate them while sitting on internet. a bit later i ate starfruit. then guess what? i fell asleep.
mwahahahaha im a pig!!
i woke up after maghrib then my Mom asked me to go to a pharmacy to buy some medicine. then in front of the pharmacy theres this stall which sell MARTABAK.
so i bought a sweet martabak wisman, chocolate cheese with extra butter.

martabak extra wisman butter, credits to ooooooohhh dear.../diany =]

ooooooooohhh... im in heaven. bite by bite feels so good!!!! get them here

not just that, i also bought some cakwe.

i found this picture in this housewife's blog, along with the recipe! yay! i always love this kinda blog hahaha ;p

then i also ate them. really, i felt full.............
i thought i am full.
oh no no, the lele came again on the dining table then i ate them again with sayur bayam (spinach soup). oh my my.....
and guess what? im holding a small plate full of remaining martabak now, and im going to take a bite of this martabak.
oohh im in heaven again :D
hahaha so then you know how i ate today, was uncontrolled ;p
gotta have some exersice later.. umm when im back to Malaysia. hahaha here im really really lazy to do some exersice! the only exersice i do was going ups and downs everyday because my room is on the second floor and the whole activities beside bathroom will be doing downstairs.
well what can i say?
i am giving myself a holiday, i eat, sleep, lazy, and happy :D

see ya!
i want to cut some starfruit....

#52

among my 52 posted posts, how many of them contains about him?
darn i dont wanna count, what a shame.... HAHAHA ;p

oke this is my 2nd week on Jakarta, already met that friends, this friends, more friends, and more friends to meet up to. and today i just got home from meeting my junior high school friends, well just a few of them, the good ones since more than 5 years ago. :)
released my stress and laughed with them are very relaxing.
also my last meeting with my high school friends also sooooooo great!
nothing better than gather around with some of your good friends and just spend time together, rite? oh how i will miss this kinda situation in years ahead.
imagine me finish this fucking university life (btw, i magically passed all my subjects! YAY!) then i will have my work life. i wont go back here to Jakarta immidietely i guess, i wanna get some good job abroad and hopefully can save lotsa moneeeeeyyyyy and of course precious working experience before im heading back to Jakarta for good. uhmm.. well except that if i can find foreigners to be my husband maybe i'll say bye to Indonesian nationality. no kidding, i wanna get rid of this nationality thing IF theres no improvement at all in goverment in running the country, yes i am so shallow right now of thinking about things like quiting my nationality, but like Tante Ida said one day "kita sih cinta sama negara kita tapi negara kita yang ga mau dicintain sama kita" ("we do love our country but the country itself wont let us love it"). its pretty much true actually. think about it.
but im still crossing my finger for better things will come and a massive improvement in our goverment to be happen so i will deeply in love with this country and never let it go :)
well im out of topic actually. hahaha. what i've been meaning to say is that when that time comes, when i have to leave my friends and family for quite a long time, will i be able to do that? i really enjoy spending time with my family and friends here, and if i cant do that for that long time, am i strong enough? will i be mature and self confident enough to really stand on my own feet without any help or anybody beside me? i cant wait to work, i admit it. but im also scared. scared i cant do good enough later. well my self confident and optimistic is a bit low today i guess.
ahh enough about all this blabbering and stuff.
i finally have my Jason Mraz ticket wohooooo!! thanks to indra who has been so nice to go and bought the ticket for me and my friends! :D
uhm now im off to bed
oh no, i have to clean up this make up and change clothes (im typing with my saturday-night-outfit hahaha).
ah well i still didnt hear any news from Meiram and his phone still off, his skype also still not online until now. its been 2 weeks im wondering where the hell he is. and i also sent sms to his friend asking about him, also still pending until the second i type this post.
maybe they're lost in Thailand with the stupid shemale hehehe.
well i just hope he is fine and doing great rite now :)
im really off now, catch ya all later! nity nite and have a blast weekend!

*******


credits here

#51

here's another crap from me people,
enjoy.... ;p

get your own player at myflashfetish

Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
~P.S im still not over you-rihanna

well Rihanna, you have my standing ovation for this beautiful song.
and the lyrics really hit me, urrm.. well, you know why. hehe.
thanks anyway
*wathehell gue bilang makasih ke artisnya emang dia ngapain ha? hahahah

#50

i just finished my today's holiday by wathcing lots of episodes from sex and the city.
i love the movie so much! the serial also, i love love loveeee to watching them over and over again! hahaha they're just so inspiring, and the clothes, oh my God! really great!
the shoes! Carrie's shoes! i envy every steps she takes once she put on really good shoes and ehem.. expensive, super expensive.
and once again, dont get too bored me putting some pictures (again) here. hihi.
i love her shoes, almost all shoes she ever wore, i love them.
she is petite like me (the petite thing i mean, not looks or rich or whatever, just the body size ;p)
and she looks really really super great everytime she wears nice high heels shoes.
aahhh i envy that! hihi
here check her shoes that i can found on shoeblog, awesome website btw, for you shoes lovers check the website and prepare to envy all those ladies who wear those beautiful pairs! ;)

it's Manolo Blahnik, the "Sedarby Zebra-Print d'Orsay"

Jimmy Choo's atlas patent sandals on Carrie's feet, so nice huh?

this is the famous one, Dior extreme gladiator platform. i always love these pair. :)

that's it?
well this time yes, hahaha.
now i want to share some quotes that i find them very inspiring and eerrmm i dont know, as i said before on my previous post, i love quotes. hehe and i just love them.
all from sex and the city, the series and also the movie.

It takes half the amount of time you dated someone to get over them.

No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends. (Carrie Bradshaw)

From my experience, honey, if he seems too good to be true—he probably is (Samantha Jones)

After a while, you just want to be with the one that makes you laugh.
(Mr. Big)

You have to figure ... if the world's fattest twins can find love, there's hope for all of us. Somewhere out there is another little freak who will love us, understand us, and kiss our 3 heads and make it all better (Carrie Bradshaw)

I do not pick the wrong guys. They pick me. (Carrie Bradshaw)

here is my favorite one hihi:
I like my money right where I can see it--hanging in my closet. (Carrie Bradshaw)

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ready for my trash and useless crap talks again people? hehe ;p

well, i miss my Meiram, as always
:(

#49

man, i want to get married.
bahahah. last night i thought about many things, especially about my educational life
i almost sure, really sure actually that im gonna fail one of my subject for this semester
then i lose hope, faith to my self and self confident.
then what i thought about next?
a wedding
a wedding after a failure in studies. yes i am so shallow hahaha
i wanna get married as soon as possible!
then i start to dreaming about my wedding, where will it be, how will it be then the next thing i know, i browse on the internet about weddings.
and bali, is the perfect place for me to get married.
its so beautiful there, well actually i wanna get married near the beach with not so many guests just some of our family and close friends, have honeymoon there, and just really have a wonderful wedding.
well there's plenty other places out there but bali seems to be so inviting, affordable and yes, beautiful. i even save some beautiful pictures about my dream wedding.
lately i always post with pictures, yes? well, pictures can tell almost everything ;p
here they are:
*pictures are taken from here, also here, and here, mmm then here ehehe



give standing ovation for Adjie Notonegoro and Anne Avantie :)

waw imagine something so wonderful really exiting for me, everything seems to be perfect, except one thing: WHO IS THE GROOM???
the only candidate has just step back from even close to proposing hahah.
mmm lets see if i can imagine my dream candidate of the groom.hmmm....
here they are:

OH YES I SURELY CAN! SLUURRPPP RRR AWRHHH~
hihihi

#48

its the third day of my holiday in jakarta and i already feel BORED.
my Mom keep asking me actually to go to cinere mall since this afternoon but i haven't wash my hair and please its so not look good, oily and lepek. hahah. so my Mom already went by herself (emm.. with our driver ofcourse hehe) and here i am still in the same position like hours ago.
but im sooooo lazy to throw my self in the shower and wash my hair, i just wanna lay on my comfy bed, or sitting for hours in front of my laptop, editing pictures, blog-walking, facebook-ing, and just browsing.
*MAN!!! HE JUST COMES ON LINE ON YM!!* ummh ok2 ignore him. heheh
and so, as i said i went blog-walking for these several hours and woohoooo take a look at this!
i found interesting blogs about fashion and some pictures caught my attention

here they are, firstly from this blog, thestreetwalker:


ooh i admire those coats at the first and the fourth pic! and also the 'AUM' bag on the third pic. uhuhhu i want theeem pleeaassee ;) and the other pictures... ummm i just love them from up to toe hihi

next one is from appealtotheeye:

i love the skirt Ma'am. and the cute geek with nice outfit really an eye catcher, yes? hihi.
oh and from this blog i found something interesting, at an event called king P session & trancedance party at italia, they post some pictures of the guests but hey, i found a cute guy with kinda style that i like, long curly hair, rebel and.. oh just take a look at him


*ok now i feel like a stalker. hehe

and also this pictures from styleclicker:


again, the 'AUM' thing from the first picture really caught my attention. hihihi and i just love a little of this and that in the rest of the pictures ;)

am i done? hehe not yet, let me add one more from vintagetea *she's awesome, btw:

all nice, especially the shoes on the third picture, love it :)


OK
im done! hihih its so fun,
and its already so long, my post this time, haha
ok now i'll go take a lookat some fashion blogs and online shops *i wont buy anything i promise, im saving up for jason mraz ticket! woohooooooo :D

********

hei Meir,
aku kangen.

#47

one of my friend asked me one day,
"hey i want to make new blog, but it will contains only about me and my bf, why dont you make one yourself?"

then i laughed and said
"no need to make a new one, i have one that seems to be contained many things related to him"
am i right?

readers, my whole life have a big part that created by him, i guess. i let him created big part of me, whether he realize it or not, but yes, he does.
and when he left, what happened to me? well.. i'm in despair. i dont deny that.

i just got a gorgeous, sound, and beautiful sleep after 1 month it seemed to be fall asleep was so hard to do.
just simply have his arms wrapped around me and listened to the music of his steady breath can drove me to sleep easily.
i found my happiness again.
and i'm too scared to lose it again,

then i fucked up everything.
with me being rude, selfish, and childish.
i forgot all he need is time,
and i am too scared that i will lose him again.
so yea, i think i messed up us again.
now we wont meet for 3 weeks,
i can't have an enjoyable holiday then, knowing the chance that we might be apart again, further than before, is so big.
please, anyone who know us, understand us,
or you who dont know anything,
just pray
for our happiness,
together or not
;)

i love you

no need to say it out loud

we just.. know it

#45

heia

just another days of boredom to kill before i go back home to jakarta!

yipiiiiiieeeyy! :D

i'll say Hello to my jakarta in less than 3 days

now here's what i did, i checked my friend's blog, ausi and found her post which she match songs and questions.

here's what she did and i tried also, quite fun anyway ;)

1. Put your music on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.

*well she didnt tag me but i tried it anyway hahah. so i'll say anyone who want to do this also, please take your fun time! ;)

1. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

modern nature - sondre lerche *wiiiw, nice2 hahah

2. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

figure it out - maroon 5 *hehe yea, still figure it out maybe

3. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

single ladies - beyonce *mhm being single and have fun with it ;)

4. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

new soul - yael naim *ayaya...

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

faith - seven collar t-shirt *oh, ya ker?

6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

innocence - bjork *hihihi well, i am ;p

7. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

you love me - devotchka *lalala~

8. WHAT IS 2+2?

the girls - clvin harris *yea right

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

forever and a day - mymp *mhm, thank God i have my best friends hope it will be forever ;)

10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

angel or devil - dishwalla *HAHAHAHA.. angel i think? ;p

11. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

i try - macy gray *right..right..

12. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

crazy - richard cheese *hahahah nooo please nooo i wanna be normal

13. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

color everwhere - christian bautista *haaa nice deh..

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

she - elvis costello *awwwwww my dream wedding song! ;)

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

gejolak kawula muda - club 80's (teen spirit - club 80's) *bahahah ya dong

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

make it mutual - olivia ong *mmm..

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

seahorse - devendra banhart *BAHAHAHA no no im notscared of sea horse, in fact i found them very cute! :D

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

you are so gay - katy perry *mmm.... (keep my mouth closed)

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

katakan saja - kahitna (just say it - kahitna) *oh yea, even the worst can happen if you just say it

20. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

aku - sore (me - sore) *hehe

21. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

main hati - andra and the backbone (play with heart - andra and the backbone) *hahaha no, it wont make me laugh for sure

22. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

little of your time - maroon 5 *no comment

23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?

robot rock - daft punk *haaaa starting from now i'll avoid robotic materials. hahah

24. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

hanya karena cinta - the groove (just because of love - the groove) * :)

25. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

shining light - ash *O YEA! i am, mom and dad! :D

26. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

blinded in chains - avenged sevenfold *mmm...

27. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

tomorrow never comes - club 8 *hiii... really that is scary

28. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

one more time - daft punk *mhm ;)

29. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

fantasy - mariah carey *hehehe maybe.

mmmhh.. not so ok ya? hahaha

well just try that people, maybe you'll have a bit fun in the middle of your boredom :D

catch ya'll later! see ya

#44

CRAZY! dammit wtf is this computer security??

i wanna cry when i see the past year questions!

even books, google, wikipedia, online notes, BRAIN can't help me to solve all those questions!!

what will happen tomorrow?

hell this is my MAJOR, 

but %#$#$%!! *##$^(%$%$#!!!!!!!

i cant even describe how panic and scared i am right now,

those encryption and cryptographic and all those shits about vulnerabilities, threats and system really got on my nerve. and the lecturer is no helping at all he talks like he's doing proselytizing

here is an example of question that i NEVER ever heard or read before during my studies for this past 2 months:

decrypt following ciphertext using two stage rail-fence cipher: IIIRI ATILT MMTSV IISNEE DTUOT SMAOJ WIAUI

key1: 7315642  key2: 6431572

and many others like that and even harder

oh yea dear readers if anyone of you could possibly have that great brain and knowledge to solve the question i would be very thankful.

damn damn damn damn i need miracle

whatever, i just have no faith at all to my self for tomorrow's exam (it's on 9am btw and im here writing blog)

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"now i've drawn a line, i've kissed my past goodbye

i know that love will dry my eyes

and God knows time is on my side." -modjo *nomoretears.

[edited] just when i decided to kiss my past goodbye for good, 

the past kissed me and said "i miss you"

itu bisikan dari surga*lebay. tai bodo ah

;)

#42

i have final exams coming in just several days!!

mmm to think this is my final exams without having my bf with me now like i used to before is kinda hit me a bit and i do miss his support, how we tried to study and remember lots of theories together, and how he taught me things i can't understand by myself, well then, i just say Bismillah... hope i am strong enough to do this alone, 

and hey, i still have my friends to fight with during this finals! so guess we all will have great fun studying and also (hopefully) great result! amin :D

mm but what did i do for this past few hours?

im getting realllyyyyyy sleepy reading and make some notes about computer security so i made coffee.

and i become active. too active actually but i didnt study! hahaha

instead of reading notes again, i took some pictures with my fuckin webcam bahahah

notice my profile picture changed? hehe and i also took some stupid pictures, wanna see?

prepare your mockery and insults people! ;p

well here they are...

still normal.. dammit i do look fat ya? hahah

wei i have tattoo (finally)! notice that cute flowers? ;p

HAHA being ugly is fun!

again...

well, not enough.. :D

bahahah notice that board people? yea its been 2 weeks but i still can't take it off ;p 

Я не могу выбросить тебя из головы

aaa ok! hey me, enough please!

i have exams and i still have no knowledge! i have to study now maybe till morning and maybe i'll shut down internet for a while, or else i will do this again hahah

so ciao!