#118

ok so Ana tagged me a long time ago but i just noticed today.
hihi forgive me for being so careless
and abandoned this blog for a while.
so, to make it up, i wrote 2 posts and this one gonna be long.
she tag me to do 100 random facts about myself.
and as she said
"seriously, if you don’t feel like reading, skip to the 100th, because this, is a tag."
so, up to you want to read from 1-100 or skip it ;)

1. i havent washed my hair for 4 days now *mwahaha i dont know why i confess this*
2. i love sushiiiiii, makes me want one now
3. my dream used to be an architect
4. now i wanna be a famous chef
5. i always wanna marry in young age
6. and i want my marriage ceremony on the beach, bali, perhaps?
7. i cant dance any traditional dance but i want to learn
8. and yes, i wish i can change my nationality
9. i really really want to be fluent in russian or spanish language.
oh and korean will do
10. maybe my first love is the red ranger in power ranger.
remember that childhood movie? yes i was crazy about him (Jason, wasnt it?)
11. i hate being ignored, by whoever it is
12. i also hate disrespectful people
13. i like rabbits
14. i hate eating rabbit meat, in whatever way it is
15. i never change my hair color
16. i cant drink soda
17. John Legend? i never get bored of him
18. i love my parents like.... so much i cant describe
19. i wish i talk more about anything with my brother
20. i love to sleep =D
21. i love animals
22. and i wish i can have a job that related to saving animals
23. i drink coffee only on final exam week
24. and feel nausea after that
25. i dont like twilight, not any of them
26. i wish i have more money to pay for myself to go abroad
27. and i dont find edward or jacob that cute
28. i hate abang2 and alay2 that tease me during my way to campus
29. i cant sing, i know, but i like to sing when im alone =p
30. i can never get enough kissing my boyfriend.
31. i am lazy to wash my underwear hahahha
32. i cant drive a motorcycle
33. i enjoy snorkeling as much as i enjoy smoking
34. i wish i inherit my mother's skin. she's sooooo fair
35. in my family, all blood type is different.
my father AB, mother O, brother A, and me B ;)
36. i hate morning classes
37. i enjoy cooking
38. i enjoy it more when i cook for more people, not just for me
39. i miss my housemates and the old times we had at ixora apartement
40. tough i hate melaka, i am thankful i choose melaka, otherwise i wont meet Meiram ;)
41. i HATE durians, even the smells
42. and also papaya
43. and peanut
44. i always have runny nose when im cleaning the house or room
45. i want rabbit as my pet at may house in melaka
46. i want to get married
47. i prefer to go to beach than metropolitan cities to do some shopping. nature always gets me
48. i hate cicak (or lizard)
49. i dont want to stop smoking (maybe in few years will do)
50. i dont know what else to write
51. i get jealous easily
52. and when i do, i tend to do things that i usually dont do
53. i wish i can be everything for someone
54. i wish i can be enough for someone
55. i want to do some oil paintings again
56. i enjoy being home alone
57. sometimes, on some random thoughts, i think in english, not in my own language
58. i hate liars
59. thats why i hate myself sometimes
60. i wish i was stronger
61. using eye liner is the hardest for me
62. wallet, phone, powder, blush on, lip balm, cigarette and tissue
are things that you can always found in my purse
63. im not interested on someone who is younger
64. guys who havent shaved are always sexy in my eyes
65. and their arms are the second things i put attention to
66. to be honest, i like horse meat
67. i found horses are really cute
68. i always want to have monkey as my pet
69. i believe aliens are real
70. i wanna meet them one day
71. i never give a shit about politics
72. shit im out of words
73. let me think.....
74. ........
75. i cant draw straight lines
76. i just found a pimple under my armpit!!! uh oh..
77. i can never get enough of bali or any beaches
78. i call it cheating if your bf hide something he did with other girl
because he is afraid you're angry if you find out
79. i named my boobs 'gwen' and 'stefani'
80. water is something i cant drink too much
81. i want to throw up if i drink beer
82. but i enjoy glasses of martini
83. martini is my mother's name
84. i want to study astronomy
85. i wanna have bigger butt
86. and also bigger boobs
87. and a flatter stomach also
88. i tried to swim as much as i can in a week
89. i like swimming
90. i forget so many things easily
91. i tend to ignore people when i do something
92. im not afraid of lesbians
93. i choose sleep late at morning than have to wake up early in the morning to study
94. i miss my bf so much now i wanna hug him so tight so he get well soon =(
95. when i miss him, i wear his big T shirt to sleep when he's not around
96. but i still miss him, it doesnt work
97. i always forgot that i have twitter
98. i wanna try submarine =p
99. i wanna kiss jude law
100. oh thank God its finally finish. one thing for sure, i love myself no matter how bad i can be

phheeewwww.. im done!
its good that im doing this during my holiday time =p
so now i tag every one of you who read this, let me know when you are done
have fun with it!

#117

happy belated new year and Christmas everyone!

God i know its been ages since last time i wrote, well, im a busy girl now i guess =p
how are you lovely readers?
hows your new year celebration?
mine went great!
comparing to last year, this year was way waaaaaaaaaaay better.
last year i broke up before new year, i cant celebrate new year because it was exactly the same schedule as my finals. and yes the break up made it all worse
this year?
i celebrate new year with Meiram in Bali =)
nothing can do better than that.
and he came to Jakarta, met my friends and my parents
life is sooo much better
yet i still have to worry about the final result and i already have to prepare to make the system for my FYP and also find place for internship as soon as possible. and if everything goes well, i can finish my studies this year and wait for the graduation ceremony next year.
*please pray for me*

Allah sayang ya sama gue,
tahun ini gue dikasih apa yang gue pengen.
dulu waktu gue putus, gue doa, doa gue cuma satu, ditunjukin jalannya kalo gue sama Meiram bisa balik lagi, dan klo ga bisa, gue minta supaya hati gue ngerelain.
dan gue balikan lagi.
emang dasar yang namanya manusia ga pernah puas.
gue doa lagi semoga hubungan gue bisa tahan sampe taun baru, bisa ngelewatin taun baru bareng, teruuuuuuus lagi masih lanjut sampe ga tau kapan.
bisa juga terkabul gue taun baruan bareng, malah dikasih bonus, dia ke Jakarta dan ke rumah gue, ketemu bokap nyokap gue. sayang ga ketemu adek gue yg skarang kuliah di Jogja (tuhkan, emang ga pernah puas)
gue pengen FYP gue lancar sampe saatnya presentasi 1, dan alhamdulillah yang ini juga terkabul semuanya sesuai rencana. dan sekali lagi, gue ga puas,
gue pengen FYP gue lancar sampe presentasi 2.
setelah itu gue pasti pengen punya tempat internship yang bagus,
digaji bagus, dan bisa bikin portfolio gue bagus.
gue ga habis habisnya meminta.
gue jadi mikir, apa gue pantes?
im not that type of a person who is really religious,
i did some sins and i did it because i want, not because of someone forcing me to do so,
yet i still ask and ask.
and Allah still giving me what i want so far.
manusia itu rakus
ga tau diri
apa cuma gue doang?

maaf.