#14

i just read again my blog from multiply.com

(as i've said before, i have some blogs. hahaha)
it goes like this:

"Dec 10, '07 06:17am

hey, its about 5 am in the morning and i cant sleep.well, i slept and i just awoke and i can't sleep again up until now. so i just browsing on the internet, looking for somehing interesting. and there it goes, the idea of finding some quotes to think about.

i love quotes.

from any people, movie, song, or any sources. it makes you think deeply about your life or what have you got from your life or just simply smile when you find a quote that might describe yourself on a particular condition.

here i just found a quote from Sam Keen, an american philosopher which sounds

"Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly"

this kind of quote makes me think, what do we seek in perfection actually?

maybe when you're that in love with someone, you'll see him or her as that perfect or almost perfect person. but what kind of perfection do you see in someone? is it always about money, looks, characters, etc?

i, myself, found that i have someone that i see as a perfect person for me, as someone i want to be with maybe for the rest of my life. no, its not my boyfriend or the guy from my other not-in-an-official-relationship-thing. its just someone that i adore for almost 7 years. isn't it obvious that im obsessed with him?

why am i so obsessed? maybe because he's perfect -at least for me. but to think further, there are many men out there who are better than him.

he's got plenty of flaws, im sure. he's not that good-looking-guy-to-die-for type, he's not that millionare man, in fact, some people say that he's stupid or idiot in a funny way.

but who cares? i adore him. but do i love him?

do i love him because of this perfection sight i've seen in him? well i dont know. i dont wanna know, at least not right now.

so, think about this, what is perfection to you? have you got someone so perfect to love? to adore? to become your obsession? why do you thnk that person is perfect?

oh and here's another quote from anonymous:

"Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning"

im sure im pretty agree with that quote. you can say you don't love someone for many reasons. but when you love someone perfectly, you can't say even one reason why do you love that person. you just.. know :)"

my last paragraph a bit hit me
cause i think now,
i just know
:)

#13

how does it feel when u just wake up,
and see your skype turns orange
a message with website link
from someone you love give you this to greets your morning


is it that simple and easy to make a girl's heart melt?
oh in this case maybe only me.
damn
i feel happy,
oh...
what the hell
i feel wonderful
hihi ;p

even its not the original video clip version, its enough to make my day

#11

heiya
just changed my header and template, notice? ;p
hmmmm why?
cause, as you know.
gue orangnya emang bosenan.
atau males
pilihannya dua itu aja
udah dari dulu dulu pengen ganti header dan penampilan *cie* blog ini tapi...
males bikin bikin header atau pilih pilih templates lagi
dan bosenan
makanya sekarang mumpung ada waktu (pdahal harusnya BELAJAR!)
gue buang rasa males itu.
dan bikin bikin header.
hehehe emang sih gue bukan anak design yang ngerti edit edit foto itu aja fotonya pake efek2 webcam gara gara tadi nungguin buffering emmm apa ya lupa, youtube gitu deh tp lupa apaan banyak abisan hehehe jadi ya maklum aja ya seadanya si header. agak narsis malah
oh ya, maaf ya ada tulisan yang agak offensive di headernya
he lagi agak ga bagus moodnya jadi
foto begitu
dan nulis begitu.
*sorry duh*
template jg ga gue apa apain lagi cuma ganti warnanya aja ntar aja deh klo rasa bosan gue datang lagi dan kemalasan itu bisa gue hilangkan mungkin akan gue ganti lagi
huahuahuaha
besides
ada seorang teman yang protes kenapa postingan gue letaknya di tengah gitu semua?
hmmm ga tau juga ya
enak aja
hehehe
tp abis ganti template,
postingannya di tengah jadi ga enak liatnya,
spacenya jadi sempit gitu kan
jadi dirubah ni nyamping, seneng beh? *eh kesebut nama hehe ;p
heeeemmmm
i need to sleep
got 9am class tomorrow
*feeling gue sih ga bakal bangun buat kelas
ahahaha ah tapi ga mau ah harus bangun buat kelas!
udah mau ujian lagi
yea friends, gue ada ujian programming lusa.
OH BESOK MALAHAN
tapi gue belom belajar,
dengan kata lain, pasrah.
nah
got to go (sleep) now
enjoy your fasting today people!
:D

#10

blablabla
not much to say about today
or yesterday
or the (feel so short) weekend
oh except that the fact i can finally spent 2 nights and 3 days with my boyfriend
its a very rare condition for us you know?
i wonder, how come??
we live in the same city, same area. duh?
now lets just forget about it, i've already think about that TOO many times duh..

well.
now i just feel relief
from the error that happened to my database group's project
i really getting a panic attack at about 15 minutes ago
tomorrow we have to present the system that we made
i already made the power point presentation,
and next is we have to demonstrate our system in front of the lecturer
i checked again for the last time
and what i got?
this fucking message appear:

"[IBM][CLI Driver] SQL1032N no start database manager command was issued. SQLSTATE=57019"

what the hell was that??
gue dengan kepanikan yang amat sangat,
melihat smua kode2 di visual basicnya
yang harusnya connect udah bener semua
lalu gue buka IBM DB2
mencari2 kesalahan itu dengan seksama apa yang terjadi
kepala berputar, ingus muncrat, kentut2
tapi masih ga nemu
gue ngadu ke muthe
gue ngadu ke fella
gue ngadu ke ausi yang tiba2 keluar kamar
gue ngadu ke doli
gue ngadu ke rumput yang bergoyang
tapi mereka ga bisa bantu soalnya udah malem

gue panik beneran loh ini
gue ngebayangin
apa jangan2 harus install ulang IBM DB2 nya
klo iya mampuslah,
connect ke VB nya ituloh yang males
tapi sodara2 berbekal ditemani saudara ausi di samping saya
kami behasil menemukan kesalahannya
dan ternyata
"oh gitu doang"

ngebetein deh salahnya
cm yah gitu
gue sampe bingung jelasinnya gimana
hauhauauhuaa
smoga besok presentasi lancaaaarrrr
ga ada lagi yang error2 bikin panik.
AMIN
:)

#9

my sleeping habit is getting worse
mmm i dont know if its bad or not
BUT
i just fell asleep in front of my laptop..

i've been meaning to go to my probability revision class on 8am
so i set the alarm on 07:30am.
i put one of my phone near the bed and one near my laptop on my desk
after i turned off one alarm, the other one rang
so i walked to it and turn it off, then i checked my skype and i saw Meiram's skype online again (after he suddenly went offline while we're talking last night)
he sent me message after saur
(i didnt wake up for saur cause i got period yeeiy hehe)

[5:43:19 AM] Meirambek Makhambetov says: selamat malam caar..
[5:43:26 AM] Meirambek Makhambetov says: u dy ate saur?

so i reply his message which then i left it because i fell asleep at about 07:30:50am
im not joking about the details of minutes and seconds
after i sent 1 sentence to Meiram's skype


[7:30:48 AM] anggie acil says: car, still awake?

then i fell asleep.
i really did
gue tidur dengan sangat nyenyaknya di depan laptop dengan posisi
yang oh engga banget ga enak
tapi gue nyenyak
sampe2 gue ga denger ada balesan berikut

[7:31:13 AM] Meirambek Makhambetov says: mhm
[7:31:20 AM] Meirambek Makhambetov says: u didnt wake 2 saur?
[7:32:34 AM] Meirambek Makhambetov says: auuuuuuuuuuu?

padahal ya skype kan bunyi nya annoying
tutit2 gitu
tapi gue ga bangun
padahal posisi gue ga enak
padahal kuping gue deket speaker
padahal gue pengen ceting *ga ngaruh sih

oh and yeah i skipped that revision class
and i woke up at 9am to do subject registration,
(FYI, i woke up on bed, DONT KNOW HOW)
i've done register subject for next sem
here it goes, my subjects for next sem:

BEN2010 - Introduction to Cyberpreneurship
TCP1311 - Object Oriented Programming
TSC2211 - Computer Security

friends, i have PROGRAMMING again next sem
3 sem in a row with programming
oh hell, im going to be a housewife someday
and housewife doesn't need programming duh?
hope it wont be a tough sem since its a short one
and hope i can have some classes together with Meiram ;)

see ya later,
im getting sleepy again.
(see, i told you its getting worse)
hope i can wake up on time since i have to submit database project
before 3PM
daaaaaaaaaaahhhh

#8

ROBIN THICKE-LOST WITHOUT YOU



i know, si robin thicke ini udah lama keluarnya *ambigu*
tapi gue baru merasakan enaknya dia skarang2 ini
parah
this song is sooo sexy
he is so damn hot too
ahahaha gue emang suka telat ya
tapi gue suka banget sm ni lagu
ga ngerti lagi, parah parah parahhh
*NORA

see the video
watch his moves
listen to the lyrics
oh..
:D

#7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH :)

*ini wujud ayah saya yang tiba2 cukur kumis dan jenggot plontossssss. shocking i know
still handsome though? hehhe ;p

oh and happy 5 months for me and Meiram.
silly u, sleepyhead u, lazzyass babik u, stupid u, jelek u
tapi sayang :)
*gimana dong..

#6

dududu~
pacar gua udah ada internet dirumahnyaaaa (akhirnya)
dan sekarang lagi ceting
tapi dikacangin

oh iya akhirnya ketemu anaknya
dia TIDUR
sodara2, dia tidur.
LAMA BANGET PARAH
i soooooooo HATE his sleeping habit
hate it so much especially when he sleeps on weekend.
friday afternoon right after class he sleeps
until saturday night.
i sleep, he wakes up.
i wake up, he sleeps.
so when are we going to spend some time???
trus skrng giliran lagi ceting gue malah dikacangin tau dah lagi ngapain anaknya klo sampe tidur lagi gua tabok!
akhirnya gue foto2 aja sndiri pake webcam HAHAHAH

bales buruan mew! gue pelototin nih!!
















uh yea gue foto juga ni sama si boneka dari dia,
bonekanya antara itik sama anak ayam apa anak bebek gitu.
nah tebak sodara2 bahasa russia nya apaa??
BALAPAN
sedangkan di basa indo balapan yaaa.. taulah sndiri apaan kejar2an, ngebut2an ya gitu deh kira2 kan. nih wujudnya si balapan

*do we look alike?

aaahhh gue mau gilaaaaaa

#5

it's a bright sunny sunday day.
hmmmm...
puasa siang2 panas2 enaknya ngapain ya
enaknya sih tidur
tapi ini gue juga baru bangun sih
huhuh gilang yang semalem nginep, masih tidur dengan nyenyaknya di belakang gue.
tadi ya pas bangun tidur, liat msn ada oren2
taunya ecca ngasih tau klo si ***** ada foto2 baru di facebook dan katanya ganteng banget
si bintang2 yang tadi gue sebutin itu adalah obsesi dari masa lalu gue (atau sampe skrng?)
hehehehe ever have an obsession about someone so bad?
mmm i have ;p
dari duluuu ya gue ngumpulin foto2nya dia dari mana aja yang bisa gue ambil
entah itu dari fs, fb, myspace, dari mana aja deh
dan berhubung dia punya band dan agaknya lumayan sukses di dunia per indie an, jadi gue suka nemu aja foto atau news tentang dia dan band nya.
ah hell, cerita soal dia banyak banget mana cukup kalo dsini bisa bikin novel gue *lebay
and theeeen....... there i go searching for that album ecca mentioned earlier
and i cant ask her from which facebook the album uploaded since she's offline and i assume she's still sleeping hahha
gue bukain satu2 dari group ******* yang kira2 memasukan tu album laknat
YEA I FOUND IT
huhhhuh
dia emang ganteng banget parah
makin dewasa
makin konyol
makin lalalalalala~

dan gue mikir,
apakah gue masih segitunya sama dia ya
masih terobsesi segitunya sama dia
gue emang usaha nyari2 tu album dimana2 (FYI dia ga punya fesbuk jadi agak susah jga nyarinya)
trs pas ketemu gue seneng
dan gue liatin bahkan fotonya gue save di hd gue (OMG!)
tapi... yaudah gitu doang.
euforia berlebihan yg gue rasain paling cuma bertahan 10 menitan. *apaseh
maksudnya ga kebawa2 sampe lama kaya dulu2 gt
gue malah jauh lebih khawatir dan mikirin kemana pacar gue skrng
terakhir gue berhubungan adalah hari sabtu pagi2 buta menjelang saur.
dan sabtu itu seharian dia ilang
dan gue mikirnya oh ya dia tidur lah pasti
sampe waktu buka puasa dia ga ada kabarnya juga
disms ga dibales ditelfon ga diangkat
*bukan hal baru sebenernya*
mmm gue diemin aja akhirnya
selesai solat teraweh, gue telfonin lagi, ga bisa juga.
ga diangkat2.
hmmm gue agak sebel dan panik dong klo dia ga bangun2 berarti dia belom buka puasa, belom makan, gak solat2.
tiap jam gue telfonin sampe akhirnya gue nyerah di jam 2am
ga gue telfonin dan ga gue smsin lagi.
terus sampe detik ini,
jam 2.15pm hari minggu
dia jga belom ada kabarnya.
emang sih ga gue sms atau telfon lagi
GUE KESEL
kenapa sih gue ga bisa spend time sm dia yang lama gitu
weekend suppossed to be the chance where we got the time to be spend together since we dont have any assignment or exam or whatever.
minggu depan udah sibuk lagi ada labtest, presentasi, dan assignment submission
keinginan dia untuk bersama gue tuh kadang kurang BANGET
dan gue ga tau dia kmana dan lagi apa skarang
I HATE THIS SO MUCH
gue benci sama ability untuk tau dia lagi apa aja tuh ga ada.

GOD.
i just hope he's ok
he's fine
and nothing bad happened to him
where ever he is,
what ever he does
i just hope he's alright
;(

#4

hiiii
its beeen LONG time i didnt write.
i know, my bad ;p

got soo MANY assignments, projects, exams, have been really fucking busy lately.
i mean REALLY HECTIC
tapi udah lewat sih semua itu, walopun 2 exam gue ga yakin akan pass. duh
tapi satu assignment alhamdulillah udah kelar, tinggal satu lagi nih
*aduh di luar panas banget*
trs lately ada beberapa hal yang mengganggu pikiran gue
mmm nono bukan ttg exam atau yang ada hubungannya sama pendidikan

duh.
i have a question.
how far will you go to know your boyfriend/girlfriend's past? or even your most trusted bestfriend? which you thought you already know about them so well but it turns out that you don't.

i know past should be stays in the past
but sometimes there are some pasts that kinda bothering my current and (maybe) future life.
dudduudadadalalala im getting craaazzzyyyyyyy

*listening to robin thicke - lost without you
(completely falling in l0ve with this song)