my imaginary state of happiness

M,
then..









(b l a n k).





*i'll get back when i know.

#39

hotel 626
ever heard about it?
it's a game i heard from my friend last holiday, im curious to play that game actually cause you can only play that game here.
and you can only play from 6pm to 6am, why is that so?
because it's a horror game, scary, thriller, whatever,
it makes you scream.
ok, since it's a scary one, i haven't got the nerve to play or even just open the website.
but couple days ago, my friends came to my house and at night we decided to play the game, the rule stated that we have to turn off the lights and put on the earphone, but since we all afraid, we leave the light on and using speaker.
bahahah at first we got so scared and scream and cover our eyes with hands or pillow or whatever we can to cover them.
but we didnt notice that when we played, they took our picture and at the last stage we saw our picture hanging among the other pictures.
here goes our first picture

it's ecca and dita, me next to ecca holding the mouse (also scared)

at first we got so scared but then when we knew we have our picture taken, we played the game again and prepared to be pictured again and we even make our position to be fit all in the camera. hahah so stupid.
these are the next pictures (we're not scared anymore, in fact, we're having fun! HAHA)





hehe,
try to play the game, it's fun anyway ;p

#38

yadayadayadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
new templates again,
told ya i get bored easily and guess it will be my kind of habit to change template, lets say errm... once a month? haha. what do you think of this new one?

#37

well it's 5:16 am in the fcking morning
and i cant sleep, still.
and my nose keep sneezing even i dont feel cold
and my right knee hurt as hell
and i haven't change my winamp from repeating "why, when, how" by justin timberlake for the 110th times now (no kidding)
and i want my Mom
and i still feel really full until now (nan-cheese kuah susu and maggie goreng in a row? no good. haha)
and i want to drink dutch lady low fat milk now *im going to throw up haha
and i errrm....

and i
miss watching
him sleeping
next to me and
just listen to his
breath
until i fall asleep too
with his arms
wrapped around
me ;(

oh i should try to just sleep
and stop reminiscing those images.
well, merry christmas to you all who celebrate ;)

#36

hi all,
i just got an award again from robin ;)
thanks bin!



rules:

1. everyone who get this award are obliged to write their recent love story & these rules in their new post
2. everyone who get this award are obliged to tag 7 of your friends who have an unique love story to be shared then they must do what you do as well


ok,
my recent love story?
ha this is just mocking me in every possible way. ;p
just a few sentences.

some people say that we feel pain from those bad memories,
so we should let them stay on the past and just forget about them.
well, there's no such thing as forgetting,
maybe acceptance and no more denying about how everything couldn't work out the way you want them to be.
for me, the good memories are the one that driving the pain towards me and also,
insanity.
like now.
HAHAH is it enough for love story?


*the 7 people are: erm.. dita, ecca. done.
cant figure out who else, suddenly im not really on the mood for this ;p

#35

ok, i said to myself, enough for all those sadness,
time to give happiness to myself,
so tonight we're having a girls night out, we'll go to karaoke, eat somewhere or whatever,
and the point is: having fun :D
as a start, i'll do something that might be fun and lighten my mood a little
cause last night i cried myself again to sleep
mostly because of watching P.S I Love You (again) and.. you-know-what. hahaha
i've been tagged by ausi
i will tag sheila, ecca, harold, dhikong, errmmm... who else havent been tagged? ;p
so here it goes...
enjoy read and see these, my wonderful readers! ;)

*The Rules :
The rules are simple. Use google image to search the answers to the quetions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

the age of my next birthday

bahahah im getting so old! but i had the best 20 anyone can have,
i think 21 might be better, no? ;)

a place i'd like to travel

if you notice on the sidebar i list some places that i'd like to visit before i die,
but i picked Disneyland because suddenly i miss my childhood so much! oh yea, my childhood wouldn't be that perfect if Disney not exist ;)

a favorite place

well, forgive me for being rule breaker, this image doesn't pop on google image search of course. hehe. it is my apartment view.
what can i say, i love my apartment, especially that bench near the pool ;)


a favorite food


i have so many favorite food, but i chose ice cream cause now im craving for one! and i won't say no for the choco chip ice cream ;)

favorite thing

hmmm no need to say anything, it comes along with me anywhere i go. besides, it contains A LOTS of memory about so many things ;)

favorite color (s)

i love every color in rainbow, it's the best God's hand made, yes? ;)

a city i was born

the monument itself already stated on where i was born, rite? oh how i miss the city... ;)

a city that you have ever lived in

this old city sometimes driving me mad, but also gives so much. well, i begin to love the place i live in ;)

a nick name i had

whoa, who ever thought i'm a code of ethics? bahahaha :D

college major

IT security technology. hope i can still handle this insanity ;)

name of my love

i'm sure you all also love your bestfriends, am i rite? ;)

a bad habit

being lazy all daay loooong... ahhh thats so nice.... ;)

a hobby

damn i miss playing this addictive game, have battle with my friends, spend the time from noon till dawn only playing guitar hero. COOL DUDE! ahah ;)

wish list

i want to be a child again where i can play all day without worrying about useless stuffs and,
freedom is all mine ;)

#34

you give your hand to me, and then you say hello to my heart. and I can hardly speak
my heart is beating so and anyone can tell

You think you know me well. well, you don't know me. No, you don't know the one who dreams of you at night and longs to kiss your lips, longs to hold you tight.
come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you always,
kiss you, taste you, all night, always..
oh, I'm just a friend , that's all I've ever been.
cause you don't know me

For I never knew the art of making love. though my heart aches with love for you, afraid and shy, i let my chance go by. a chance that you might love me (again), too
(Michael. Buble)


I've been here before a few times and i'm quite aware we're dying

and now.
you give your hand to me and then you say good-bye.
i watch you walk away. and i'll miss your laugh, your smile
your hands they shake with goodbyes but i'll take you back if you'd have me
i'll admit i'm wrong if you'd tell me, i'm so sick of fights, i hate them


lets start this again for real
(BLINK 182 - Always)

#33

I'm searching for the lover I knew, have you seen him? Where did he go? I wonder where he ran off to. feels like I've just lost my only friend.... ;(
i miss my baby so, i'm calling but I can't get through.
Flames subsided, colors faded, love just got so complicated. Wish that I could see his smile again.
So if you see him out there, tell him I'm still here, waiting for the day when he will reappear.

Please tell that man if you meet him, that someone's longing to see him and
i wish that he would get back soon.
maybe i ignored him for too long and i didn't even notice when he slipped away. Maybe while I lay fast asleep then out into the night he creeps.
I'll leave the light on, so he'll come back someday
So if you see him out there, tell him it's not fair, that life's just not the same when he's not here.
I miss my baby so, just what am I supposed to do?

#32

insecure.

damn i need cigs
or patience. maybe?
shit,
i just need more brains,
not heart.

#30

like how my blog look like now?
hehe i just found some spare time this afternoon (oh forgive me for not spend the time to do assignments) and decided to change my blog templates and looks.
i've been using this image of flying tulips ( i guess they're tulips) for quite a long time for my fs, hi5 and.. errmm i dont remember what else. hehe
and because i love flowers, leaves, and everything related to them, i made it full of flowers, butterflies and leaves. hihi. oh wish i can have a flower shop someday (here i go again made a wish to make my list longer)
so what do you think?
give me some advises and critics are really appreciated. ;)

*big credit to this web

#29

daydreaming is always fun, yes?
and today in between doing my assignments for computer security (argh cryptography driving me mad!) i have some ideas that come through my mind. well not idea actually, more like what i want to do, imagination, wishes, dreams, desires about too many things. well, here they are....

.everyday assignments and i became really good friends, also exams too so i dont have to study that hard.
.i don't like wake up too late in the morning for class and have to do things in a rush, so i wish to wake up right on time every morning and not snooze my alarm over and over again ;p
.or better i dont have class in the morning, let's say... 1 pm is the earliest class i have. haha
.(deleted).
.one day, i want to get really drunk, i mean really really badly drunk until i become unconscious, i want to know how it feels, how BAD it feels like.
.i wish my bf allowed me to smoke weed *i highly doubt this
.and i want to smoke weed with my bf and get really high together
.easily find job in my industrial training, and i hope it will be at least in Singapore or japan. ha!
.i really would love to see my wall in my room covered with lots of dean's list which i get every semester. so far only got 1 DUH????
.it will be lovely if 1 RM= RP 1000 and airplane ticket to Jakarta will be.. lets say RM 10 and no limit for free fiskal, so i can go home every weekend
.celebrate my 1st year anniversary with my bf to Maldives island
.sex before marriage is allowed by religion and government and... whatever, as long as its legal. that would make the idea above this more perfect, no? HAHAHA see, my imagination becomes wilder, well, imagination is just imagination nothing more :p
.Julius Fujisawa becomes muslim and married Arsheila Kinan. :)
.after i finish this fuckin' university life, i get the chance to study architecture.
.this university life is lasting in another 1 year then i'll graduate. haha
.get marry in a young age! lalala~
.i wish to have twins children in the future
.have a really really great job and pay for my Mom and Dad to go Haji
.Sarah Murtadho finally declare her relationship with K*** A**** officially! HAHA so sorry sar, but its really just my wish, not forcing you to do so (and i know it will be soon, yes? haha)
.see my brother have his first girlfriend haaha it will be in his college life which soon will come, hope he gets in ITB. yoyoyoy fight bro!
.my mother completely not suffered from vertigo anymore, it hurts me also seeing her hurting
.i want to go skydiving! bungee jumping! gantole! eerrrmmm.. what else extreme? i wanna try all!
.have the strength to do those things above haha ;p
.Arum Dyastari finally meet her perfect man, soon!
.one day i am a master of all coding~
.hack MMU database and change all my gpa and cgpa above 3.5
.i really want to go to Kazakhstan with my bf, see his hometown, discover where he grew up, loving the town he also love and become the part of it
.know his family well and be thankful to his parents for raising such a wonderful person
.Hasbi Akbar grant all Ausia Kusnarningtyas's wishes, go with her wherever she wants to go and do all the things she wants them to do.
.loading pet society never hard! ugh
.Fellania Bona Putri will soon be happy with her F (either Fern***O or F****) HAHAHA
.Anindita Arianti Putri gets her dream digital camera soon, along with the Diana will be also very nice ;)
.(deleted)
.(deleted)
.i just got a request from a friend named Anindita Arianti Putri. I REALLY HOPE HER FIND A PERFECT SOUL MATE AT A VERY SOON TIME, like.... right now maybe? hehe ;p
*this comes from the heart dit, not just because you asked me hehe
.i am a great housewife, wonderful mother and a lovely wife :)
.oh please just let me add one more, i want to see 40kg shows on the scale when i measure my weight HAHAHA
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.
.
OH this can never end,
its soooooooooo exited and really relaxing typing all those wishes and dreams and wants, desires, everything! really....
well, dreams and wishes are just imagination, but who knows what will happen? cross my finger for all of those things (and many others in my mind) to be happen. one day.... maybe :)
now,
i have to go back to do this computer security again, as im typing those things makes me completely forget about the assignments haha. wtf i dont really care actually ;p

#28

It sounds ridiculous but when you leave a room
There's a part of me that just wants to follow you too
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